So it’s 25th January and this blog update is well overdue.
When I gave God permission to lead me this year in a way which was somewhat uncomfortable, I never expected to see the consequences so early on in my journey. Almost immediately after committing to becoming comfortable being uncomfortable I was faced with the reality of my decision.
My plans for after I graduate this summer are suddenly very up in the air, with God having closed a number of doors I had hoped would remain open. As someone who likes to have detailed plans and be in complete control, not knowing what I am going to be doing in a matter of months is not something I find very easy. Over the last few weeks I have also re-started at University and with it comes the stress of a number of seemingly impossible deadlines and the doom of finishing my dissertation in time.
In truth, the last few weeks have been pretty tough and there have certainly been lots of tears shed and chocolate eaten! However I am still trying to approach my circumstances in light of my desire to become comfortable being uncomfortable.
The first thing I have been reminded of is that when we are facing difficult circumstances we must emerse ourselves in scripture and focus on God’s promises to us.
I am determined to hold on to the identity I have in Christ.
“In love he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ according to the purpose of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace” (Ephesians 1:5)
By his grace, I am a daughter of the king and with that comes both responsibility and inheritance. In times of discomfort I am called to cling to the security offered by a loving father who has my life safely in his hands. When I look at my life until now, God has never let me down. He has always been there for me when things have been tough and brought me out the other side closer to him. He continues to shower me with countless blessings and so I have confidence when I say that I know I will be alright, despite being uncomfortable, because his love for me will never fail.
I am increasingly grateful for my friends and family, brothers and sisters in Christ, who are ‘doing life’ with me. They are there to celebrate with me and share in my joy but also continue to support and encourage me when I am struggling and finding things difficult. To those of you who have listened to me, prayed for me, cried with me, had tea with me and even looked up jobs with me, especially over the last few weeks - THANKYOU! You are all blessings from my heavenly father and I will be forever thankful for you!
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